Lucky

First time i feel so lucky that i used to be the one she loves even thought it does not last forever but it just more than enough.. the moment u kiss my cheek, u never know how blissful i feel that time.. sorry that i never let you know that i am really happy with you.. and always the happiest whenever you are around. things go and pass, no matter how much we love it... it will still ends one day.. we just can try out best to appreciate it. I know all this while, i never really keep all the promises i made. the last request from you, i will always keeps in mind and not let you down... Also, i realize loving someone is not about being together.. is all about giving the one you love the best you can give.. i do not believe in god, but i will pray for you. No matter how many times i said sorry to you.. i know it will never enough. the best last thing i can do, is not to hurt you anymore... Sorry, ILY.

May god bless you

Never the same

I miss you more than I thought..

The moment you left my life, the world seems to be depopulated..

I wonder is there any way to change this. I will do anything just to get your heart back

I know you just don’t feel the same way anymore but it cant stop my passion towards you.

Somehow they said true love is not being with that person you love, or owning someone

But is all about making her feel blissful and happy all the time even she is not with you.

I don’t understand why people will say so… Perhaps mine is not true love

because it is just not the same without you.. Seeing you living happily with any guy is like killing me

slowly to torture me…

Change

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Basically everyone changes every seconds every minutes every hours everyday....
Why it does not change, you are still there inside me... i wonder as time passes will i forget you...
I need to forget you, to move forward... to improve my everything...
Why.. I do not change for quite a long time.. it just keep hurting me..
No one is there for me anymore.. maybe i did change... i change to miss you more... regret more to let you go..
I realized that the difference with and without you.. Haiz.. this is human nature i guess...

Why..

Am I really that useless

I messed up everything in my life recently, i don't know how to carry on this life.
I guess if that day you never say that sentence, i wont be here anymore. there is no aim, no hope, no target in my life anymore. I thought time can cures everything, in fact nothing change.
I am not talented, that the reason she left me. I dont understand why this happen to me, but it already happened. So, just let it be...
Everytime i tell myself  i will change my life better my life gets worse. I know i never try to make it better.
Thats fair enough for me.. I start my life with tears everyday since she left, wondering and waiting my tears to be dry.. I guess the girl i love has gone and changed.. therefore, she will only appears in my heart. I will try my best to keep you safe inside. I promise...

Stress

What comes into your mind as you saw the word ''stress''... 

For me nothing.. why, simply just because i dont know.. =)

So happy this week that my family members came all the way to kampar visiting me and bring me for a vacation. Even though final exam is coming soon but i still enjoy the trip with them because they are those who love me with their deepest heart.

We went ipoh for some delicious food such as ''Lou Wong Chicken Rice''. Next day we went tambun Lost World, is like a zoo combine with a water theme park. I enjoy the hot spring there so much but i knew it was so dirty. XD ''when u saw someone sitting there not moving but looking around'' hehe u know u should run away from that pool.

My tears not running out yet, i dont know when will my tear's tank become empty and i will cry without tears.

Must be very cool that time... seriously it hurts me so much..

Sorrow

Don't know why the very first moment i enter december my heart feels so down, perhaps i still haven't let it go yet. Pondering while watching outside the window, a sunny day but inside my heart always rains.. why..
Wondering when i will start my life once again, maybe i scare to step forward anymore..

No mood to continue anymore, no one will understand because i dont as well...

Think

It's rainy and muggy and just gross outside the train
I went back to my hometown(seremban), malaca, muar then back to my second home again..
Home sweet home, totally agree that nothing is sweeter than that warm comfortable place.


Having math test today evening as well as chemi tomorrow
then why am i still here writing blog, i don't know
perhaps i gave up or i am ready (no idea)
I am still thinking


the purpose i live in this world
why GOD create me
who am i actually
what i should do with my life
where should i continue my life
whom i can trust and not


I will keep on thinking even thought the time never stop for me because the time i stop thinking is the time i ended my life.